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mickey mouse might meet minnie for music

from my other blog:

Gee, Thanks Mom.

You know, my mother and I have never been the closest, but I'm not really sure why she's always so critical of the way I look. It hurts my feelings. Really. So as I'm about to go out, I sit here blogging trying to avoid tears. I like to look nice. I like to take care of myself, but the way I dress and look my mother doesn't like. Most daughters hear from their mothers how beautiful they are, and my mother is always the one who tells me… Continue

Added by kateybella on January 18, 2009 at 12:12pm — 2 Comments

Thats the story of... thats the glory of love

Suzecue had an interesting comment in my last blog about my first boyfriend. I recently found out that he was in prison for 15 years for making meth.

"what is it about past loves doing jail time? I am sure that if we were still in their lives, they would have been law-abiding citizens. yea, right... "

It is kind of true isn't it? It is almost egotistical to believe that with just the power of our love we could save the people in our lives from… Continue

Added by JustDee on January 18, 2009 at 6:30am — 4 Comments

When do you stop trying?

My Mom collapsed again today. She is doing 'ok' now. Paramedics checked her out,

she didn't want to go to the ER. Luckily she didn't hurt herself when she fell. I feel

horrible because I couldn't get to her this time. Because of my mobility issues,

all I could do is call 911. I also called two of my Mother's sisters who live nearby,

one of whom just called to berate me for allowing this to happen. I guess I don't

feel bad enough already as far as she's concerned.

I… Continue

Added by photo2010 on January 17, 2009 at 8:22pm — 8 Comments

The Big Black Bug Bit the Big Brown Bear and the Big Brown Bear Bled Blood

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Added by kateybella on January 17, 2009 at 7:30pm — 1 Comment

Photographs and memories...

Geez,, all of my blogs are so full of blah blah blah...

me, me, me, me, me!

Does anyone have a violin...?

this one I hope will be a bit more funny.

Have you ever looked up and old love? I'm sure we all have an image in our head as to where someone we knew "way back when" must be now, at least I know I did. Will with this wonderful invention (you know the one Al Gore invented) the "internet", we can now find our past loves and friends in almost the… Continue

Added by JustDee on January 17, 2009 at 10:30am — 13 Comments

Chicago 2016

Living near Chicago, I am allowing myself to be swept up in the excitement about our Olympic Bid for the 2016 Games.

Did you know that you can participate too?

Become a fan of the Official Page of Chicago’s Olympic Bid Committee and read all about it. You can also watch videos of support from Olympic gymnasts!

http://www.facebook.com/chicago2016

Come on down, join me in this madness, and thank you for… Continue

Added by gabrielized on January 16, 2009 at 9:14pm — 1 Comment

Check out the pics of Syd and I from when we were kids

they are at the bottom of my page.. I never realized how often my mother dressed us alike... and no, we aren't twins... Syd just always wanted to be just like her older sister...

that's our older brother stuck in between us and my mom in the first one.

She made most of our clothes, at least the dress up ones.

I had forgotten what we looked like.

Thanks for sending those pics to me Syd, of course, if you hadn't of stolen all of our childhood photos.. I… Continue

Added by JustDee on January 16, 2009 at 12:49pm — 5 Comments

I'll get by with a little help from my friends...

I am just now waking up (it's 12:30 pm) because I was up till 6 am this morning talking to a friend on oovoo. It was my first experience with a video phone call and we had a blast.

I was in a pretty foul mood (still left over from yesterday morning) but it didn't take long for us to get laughing. That has been sadly missing for the last few years. Oh don't get me wrong, I have laughed, but not like last night.

I love my family, and sometimes I even like spending time with… Continue

Added by JustDee on January 16, 2009 at 12:46pm — 2 Comments

a friggin poem type blah thing

today you see me in a different light

not what i once was vibrant yet shy

you may think you still know me

but in truth i have turned away from what you once knew

its nothing you have done rather

its the world around me that has shaped this knew side

the old me is dead and gone

a knew flame shines through me

a flame not of anger but nor of love

a flame that does not care anymore

i am tired of what i see

disillusioned by the world around… Continue

Added by jinboy on January 15, 2009 at 5:48pm — 2 Comments

Do I have to say the words...Do I have to tell the truth?

So today is another day and where am I at, almost back to where I started it seems.

How is it that with one spoken sentence I can be right back to where I started?

Why do I let people have such power over me?

Why is it that I need the approval of others?

Why do I feel the power of others disapproval so much more strongly then that of their love?

Oh God, I am so tired of hearing myself talk. I am so tired of the voices in my head telling me… Continue

Added by JustDee on January 15, 2009 at 10:00am — 1 Comment

the collab

Wow

The goth collab was one of my favorite things I have ever done online. I appreciate all of the people I asked to do it stepped up. All of you that participated knew if I couldn't get them to be in the collab meant I lost. I was never a big volunteer for collabs but now I love them and I hope others get involved.

NJ - you looked hot and I love the candle and drink:)

FHP - you appeared to get the rage going but you were a awesome goth with the… Continue

Added by jessicapeanut on January 15, 2009 at 9:23am — 2 Comments

Feelings...nothing more then feelings...

I'm feeling a little melancholy today. I'm not really sure why. I have a killer headache, that could have something to do with it, after all, who can be happy when they don't feel to good.

I've actually been feeling so much lately. It's like a kaleidoscope of feelings. It seems so long since I really allowed myself to feel anything... so this is kind of scary.

I don't know when it happened, when I shut down but I know that I did. Maybe I didn't shut down as much as… Continue

Added by JustDee on January 14, 2009 at 7:19pm — 10 Comments

Elizabeth George and Mom

Just a quick update. Mom is sick again. My brother will take her to the doctor on Thursday. We think it might be because she forgets to eat and drink water. As soon as we feed her, her dizziness goes away and she feels a little better. My sister bought her a nifty blue walker with a seat and a basket underneath. Hopefully she'll use this because she fell again today. So far we've been really lucky with the falls.

On another note, I have reached page 145 in Deception On His Mind. It's… Continue

Added by Dunleavy on January 14, 2009 at 2:47am — No Comments

Day 2

OK, so I'm not going to post what I eat everyday, I am going to keep a private food journal.

Its about being aware of what goes into my mouth... sort of like setting up a house hold budget. I am hoping it will become second nature after awhile to wake up and eat my breakfast, it isn't now.

it was almost 3 before I ate anything today and then I went to a buffet with my daughter.. I know, what a loser.. 2nd day of diet and she falls off the wagon... but I didn't, not… Continue

Added by JustDee on January 13, 2009 at 8:15pm — 3 Comments

Whats love got to do with it?

Where do you go when your heart is broken? Who do you turn to? What if the person you would usually turn to, is the person who has broken your heart?

How do you recover from something like that? To put your faith, love and trust in someone, only to have them stomp on it and make you feel like you aren't worth the air it takes to fill your lungs.

Seriously, how do you recover after something like that? I don't know if I could. I don't know if I would. No, I would and I… Continue

Added by JustDee on January 13, 2009 at 12:18pm — 2 Comments

Day 1.... only 546 more to go...

day 1 of program:

weight:260

work out: 20 min

Food: breakfast- fruit salad

lunch: lean cuisine chicken panini (330 cal)

Dinner: Ruby Tuesdays- Salad (mescaline mix, mushrooms, cherry tomatos,1 tsp sunflower seeds, zucchini, croutons, 4 tbls dressing)

Turkey burger (no bread)1 slice of swiss cheese, 1/8 of an avocado ( YUMMY)

Water-32 oz

So today was my first day of eating better and all in all, I did ok.

I woke up late, so I didn't have… Continue

Added by JustDee on January 12, 2009 at 11:30pm — 1 Comment

My Brother Yelled At Me

I got lost today coming home from Long Beach. Well, not really lost. I was preoccupied and missed my turn. Ended up taking the long way home. Normally I wouldn't have minded, but I needed gas and there weren't any gas stations in the immediate area. Needless to say I arrived home in one piece.

My brother yelled at me last night when he got home. I had spent the evening with Mom at her apartment and it hadn't been a good night. He asked me how she was and I told him she was confused. She… Continue

Added by Dunleavy on January 12, 2009 at 11:24pm — 1 Comment

I want to know your reasons for leaving LV channels up

Hey -

Today I went to leave a comment on Petyalfieburgers latest vid. Directly below me was a porn spam with 3 vignettes. The first two were your usual fare - the 3rd was a yellow lab screwing a woman.

I've heard talk of young girls being in the live rooms too.

I wonder at this point how I can justify keeping my content on that site.

I want to know your reasons.

Is it all nostalgia at this point?

Is it pride?

I would feel really shitty about walking away from… Continue

Added by flophousepoodle on January 12, 2009 at 10:51pm — 8 Comments

Lessons in Ironing or The Mister Green Jeans Incident

When I was about 4 or 5 years old I watched the Captain Kangaroo Show religiously. No Mister Rogers for me. As an adult I discovered the charm of Mister Rogers, but as a kid I needed more action; jingling keys, Dancing Bears, falling ping pong balls, and such. I really liked Mister Green Jeans too. I can't even remember why now. Perhaps I dug his colorful dungarees.

One day Mom bought a package of Oscar Meyer Wieners for lunch. Inside was a free plastic hand puppet. Since my brothers… Continue

Added by JoAnn on January 12, 2009 at 8:00pm — 1 Comment

Am I a real girl?

Who the hell am I? I sure don't know, I wonder if I ever knew.

First I was a daughter and a sister. Later, I became a friend and a lover and later still a wife and mother. Each of those rolls came with a set of instructions, a way I was supposed to be and feel so I never had to put to much thought into what I wanted or how I felt.

As a the oldest daughter and sister, I became the stand in for my mother. One time in particular, my mother took a short "emotional vacation"… Continue

Added by JustDee on January 11, 2009 at 10:36pm — 4 Comments