Whatever floats your boat...
I'll get by with a little help from my friends...
I am just now waking up (it's 12:30 pm) because I was up till 6 am this morning talking to a friend on oovoo. It was my first experience with a video phone call and we had a blast.
I was in a pretty foul mood (still left over from yesterday morning) but it didn't take long for us to get laughing. That has been sadly missing for the last few years. Oh don't get me wrong, I have laughed, but not like last night.
I love my family, and sometimes I even like spending time with them, but I can't ever really be myself, thats kind of sad isn't it? I can't be "ME" because I am to busy being mom or wife. In my house, we could be playing a game one minute and the next there could be all out war because someone said something to hurt someone else's feelings and then the next thing you know, someone is flying off in a tantrum, saying "I hate you all and wish you were dead" (Hey they're teenagers, what do you expect?). Or my husband will start rough housing, which always starts a fight because they don't know when to stop and someone always gets hurt. In any case, it is a tense situation for me that I try to avoid.
The thing is that for the last couple of years, I have not really hung out with my friends. I still talk to them from time time to time,but I have not physically hung out with them. Thats what last night was like. Even though we were in two different states, it was like we were hanging out having a few drinks (mine was coffee) laughing at the silliest things. Just being silly, I'm 45, I don't have many chances to just be silly.
OMG, as tired as I am today, I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my back. What a gift. I know we can't do that all the time, my husband would get pretty pissed if I stopped coming to bed.. but its like a drug, I want to do it again.
If you're reading this, thanks for cheering me up last night....
I was in a pretty foul mood (still left over from yesterday morning) but it didn't take long for us to get laughing. That has been sadly missing for the last few years. Oh don't get me wrong, I have laughed, but not like last night.
I love my family, and sometimes I even like spending time with them, but I can't ever really be myself, thats kind of sad isn't it? I can't be "ME" because I am to busy being mom or wife. In my house, we could be playing a game one minute and the next there could be all out war because someone said something to hurt someone else's feelings and then the next thing you know, someone is flying off in a tantrum, saying "I hate you all and wish you were dead" (Hey they're teenagers, what do you expect?). Or my husband will start rough housing, which always starts a fight because they don't know when to stop and someone always gets hurt. In any case, it is a tense situation for me that I try to avoid.
The thing is that for the last couple of years, I have not really hung out with my friends. I still talk to them from time time to time,but I have not physically hung out with them. Thats what last night was like. Even though we were in two different states, it was like we were hanging out having a few drinks (mine was coffee) laughing at the silliest things. Just being silly, I'm 45, I don't have many chances to just be silly.
OMG, as tired as I am today, I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my back. What a gift. I know we can't do that all the time, my husband would get pretty pissed if I stopped coming to bed.. but its like a drug, I want to do it again.
If you're reading this, thanks for cheering me up last night....
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