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I hastened the demise of my best friend this morning.  He lived 4 months and two days post his diagnosis of lymphoma.   He was unique.   So independent, so smart was he that I am sure although he was domesticated, some of his lineage was not.  One word describes my red boy..... Perfect.

He walked outside in the backyard today before he came back in and laid where the Vet drugged him to death... no joy... just going through the motions as he did yesterday, and somewhat the day…

So it has been almost a month to the day that I left Knoxville and came to NM.

For the first 2 1/2 weeks, I just could not stop crying. It was non stop and hard.  I felt like I was losing my mind, in fact, I asked my sister to take me to the hospital, which she and mother did.

It was really really hard because I seriously expected them to admit me to the psyche ward.  However, after the psychiatrist spoke to me and she saw that I had the support I have and she…

So I have been told by my university that I have attained my bachelors degree in Forensic and medical science

it is however an ordinary degree and not an honors :(

but to be honest i dont care LOL

So heres to 4 years of university and now im finally done

ONWARDS!!!!!! heheheeee

Hi Friends,

I hope everyone who celebrates the 4th is having a good one, and

that everyone who isn't celebrating is doing well.

I got some kind messages from NatureJunkie wondering where

I've been and if I'm ok. I haven't really been anywhere, except

maybe more depressed lately over my health issues, financial

struggles, worries about how long I'll be able to afford living

in my condo, etc. Maybe the unveiling for my Mom set…

How social networking can help us to save our own lives.  --> e-Patients Website

   …

and what we would do

or if ya wanna go their

what we already have done…

Yep,

I just keep going around in circles.  I can't help myself it seems.  I think I am ok one minute and in the next minute I fall apart. Maybe I still just have to much time on my hands to think about things.. maybe.. .I don't know.. can't wait for counseling to start...

Right well firstly thanks to all who are taking part, commenting etc on the 30 second vids. Great to see so many cool videos on the Ark.

Secondly I'm slighty stuck with a viewing problem right now. I'm using acomputer where I'm currently living cos I have no wi-fi access to use mine but for some reason videos won't play. I'm using a guest account so can't install the necessary things as I don't have the admin permissions.

So I will be catching up with watching…

Just to emphasize i have a "schoolboy crush" on skylar grey LOL

Every word has a shade of grey

and theres not much more that I can say

some say to move on with life

yet others say to simply pray

yet I go through life in my own way

sometimes I run and hide

at other points I sit and play

yet every word that I say

somewhere deep theres a shade of grey

OK, 

so I have been blogging on blog spot but I really appreciate everyones feedback, so if you have the time, please check it out.

http://dnsmrz.blogspot.com/

Today I went to an OA Meeting (over eaters anonymous) that is a 12 step program for people who compulsively eat.  I decided to utilize a 12 step program because I feel it is my best chance first of all to create a network, 2nd of all, I feel it offers me the best opportunity for extended success.

I wasn't sure I was going to get there.  I decided last night to go...but this morning, fear set in. Fear of meeting people I didn't know.  Fear of having to stand up and say I had…

Be forewarned, this is probably going to be a long boring blog about my stupid life.

I am 47 and 3/4 years old. I have been married for 26 and 3/4 of those years to the same man.  I have posted blogs about how much I love him, how much he infuriates me and maybe even how much I hate him (at times).  I have posted blogs about my girls.  I have posted blogs about things I have come to realize about myself and questions I still had about myself.  I should be so much further…

Have you checked a breast today? Yours? Your partner's?

Today was my yearly breast screening. Lucky me, I get the annual boob squish with a side order of manual check up. Oh ~joy~  

I do a self-examination faithfully on the 15th of every month. And guys, it's not just for women any more. Men get breast cancer too. The mammogram tech and nurse, cold hands/warm hearts, say they only do about 6 men a year. Not enough in their opinion. My husband, the …

Found this app on iTunes the other day and thought a lot of you might like it. It's a 15 sec video sharing app. It has a nice vibe to it. Check it out here. It's currently only on iphone but other smart phones will be available soon I think. If you join, look me up. Usual name cos I ain't that creative.

Some Final Thoughts on the Death of Osama bin Laden …a letter from Michael Moore

"The Nazis killed tens of MILLIONS. They got a trial. Why? Because we're not like them. We're Americans. We roll different." – Michael Moore in an interview last week





Thursday, May 12th, 2011



Friends,



Last week, President Obama fulfilled a campaign promise and killed Osama bin Laden. Well he didn't actually do the killing himself. It was carried…

First off Kirb is still with us.  He has done extremely well, but I the past couple days his lymph nodes in his neck are much larger... I suspect this is a sign that the disease is progressing rapidly.  He still goes on walks, eats vigorously chases hawks out of the yard and tries to be normal around the rest of the pack....  but I know the disease is catching up with him, and this time I don't think I can alleviate some of the discomfort.  We shall see.  He had a very excellent week  up…

Yesterday, May 1, 2011, was the unveiling at the cemetary for

the writing on the stone that she shares with my Father.

I wrote and spoke the eulogy, which expresses just a little

of who she was, and my love for her.

I would like to share it with my friends here:

"My Mother often told me about how she and her family came to the United States. She



told me that a lawyer who lived in her family's home town in Hungary…