Getting off the merry go round

[JustDee]

So it has been almost a month to the day that I left Knoxville and came to NM.

 

For the first 2 1/2 weeks, I just could not stop crying. It was non stop and hard.  I felt like I was losing my mind, in fact, I asked my sister to take me to the hospital, which she and mother did.

 

It was really really hard because I seriously expected them to admit me to the psyche ward.  However, after the psychiatrist spoke to me and she saw that I had the support I have and she was sure I would not actually hurt myself, she gave me some anti depressants and sent me on my way...

 

It has been almost 2 weeks since then and I guess they are working.  I still get upset sometimes, but the level of anxiety is about 90% less then it was before.  Don't get me wrong, this is still hard. Ending a 27 year relationship is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do, but I am hopeful that we will be able to become friends again at some point, at least I am willing to...

 

We will have to see about him... All I want now is to get well and get back to my girls...

[NatureJunkie]

One day at a time. It WILL get better.

[Pypermarru1]

NatureJunkie is right.  It's bound to get better.

[photo2010]

Dee, wishing you all the best. (((Hugs)))

[JustDee]

Hey Photo, how are YOU doing?

[Geoff]

90% improvement is impressive. I'm sure it's still hard but you should feel very encouraged. (btw, I've got a nice sister too.)

[JustDee]

thanks Geoff, I do feel encouraged. Every day I take a step forward,some days I step backwards but I try to forgive myself for those days and forge on ahead.

All in all, I have made great strides and I am very proud of where I am, especially when I look at where I was almost 6 weeks ago... and yes, I do have a nice sister.  She has been a God send to me. She and my mom have been so very supportive.  I don't know what I would have done without them.

[BlancheNoE]

I can't tell you how good it is to "hear" you speak (type) like that.

You are obviously on a better path. There is so much more and it's wonderful and you deserve it.

...and I've got a great sister too. I need to call her. Thanks.

[JustDee]

thanks Blanchenoe,

its great to hear from you and thanks for the encouragement. I know you are having your own struggles right now.  I hope you had a nice long chat with your sister.. I am actually hanging out with mine right now.

[photo2010]

Dee, Wish I had something positive to say, but I don't. I am riddled with pain and tired of it all.

I have some awful relatives near me, one of whom is stealing from me.

 

I'm glad you have your Sister and Mother for support. May I borrow them? :)