Trust My Instincts....?

[spacemonkey1310]

Sitting in the lobby of a cheap Holiday Inn. I want to leave.

Go back to New England or original England. Either way I don't care.

My instincts are telling me to get out now but in all honesty, they've been telling me this for a while.

In Manchester Airport I had to force myself to check in. More than once I fought back tears as I said goodbye. Those who know me know this is rare.

Arriving in the US airport I felt no excitement. Standing on a moving silver floor surrounded by glass I watched the people. Down below me on the left people took up three chairs as they slept in an almost empty lounge. On my right, disheveled, sweaty people sprinted by to make connections. And I stood still on my moving silver floor waiting to feel...well, anything really.

I've met up with my two new colleagues. We have nothing in common. Work-shy vs workaholic. Young vs old. Different senses of humour. The list goes on. They're not bad people we just have almost nothing in common.

So here I am sitting in the lobby of the Holiday Inn awaiting the arrival of my new boss and I'm trying to decide if I should tell him how I feel or head out to the new club and see how it goes. My instinct is telling me to tell him now. The longer I leave it the harder it will be to get out. On the the other hand without going out to the club to experience anything, I really have no reason to say I want to leave.

Trust my instincts?

[JustAnotherUserName]

Well, my friend, firstly, it seems a bit premature to say you have nothing in common with people you've only just met!

When I'm considering leaving a job, I always look at the alternative. If you've got something better to go to, that makes all the difference in the world. It also depends, of course, on your level of commitment to your employers. Do you have a contract that binds you? Are they left in a lurch if you leave?

These are terribly tough times over here. Correct me if I'm wrong, but I understand that (1) you have a job coaching, which you love to do (2) your lodging is paid for by someone else (3) your car is paid for by someone else (3) your travel is paid for by someone else.

I'm thinking that it could be worse and there are a whole bunch of folks out there who'd love to have such a set of problems :-)

Hang in there monkey...! At least it's sunny here!

[Kat.Ballou]

get them drunk, then decide if you've got something in common.

hang in there ape nuts. I hid in the bathroom and cried the first week of my summer job. And now in retrospect I would have kicked myself in the ass if I had quit before the second week. I loved that job.

[photo2010]

You're working in your field of choice, even if it's not the situation you would choose. Give it a chance, you can always quit if it becomes unbearable. My 2c.

[jinboy]

im with kat if all else fails a pint tends to do the trick

check out the place if you like it that will give u a reason to work through it

[SydTheSkeptic]

*sigh*

I think ya got some wise words in all these comments, but I have a sense I know where this is coming from. It's about not feeling valued. I know that feeling regardless of the fact that I'm a teacher. I know that feeling very well and it was enough, at times, to make me want to explode.

I could be wrong, but I just wanted you to know I feel where you're possibly coming from. As to advice about what to do with "right now"- I don't have anything more than what's here already.