IN THE STILL OF THE NIGHT....

[JustDee]

There was a time in my life when I was a prolific writer. I was awash in ideas and images that I couldn't wait to put down on paper...(yes, it was so long ago that paper was actually written on). I wrote poems, short stories and even some times, with the help of my sister, lyrics. Were they great? I don't know. I think I had some raw talent, I think I could have been a good if not great writer.

I always dreamed of writing a book, my life story if you will. In fact, I've been writing it in my head since I was a kid. When ever there was some major happening in my life, I would re-title the book. At 13, I fell "in love" for the first time..(a whole other blog) and my book was going to be called,"love at 13", hey, don't laugh, it could have been a best seller amongst the "tween" set. Of course when we broke up a few months later, I was going to call it, "Life, over at 13". I know not very imaginative.. but they got better as time went on. It got to the point that I had so many titles, I decided to make them chapter headings...If I ever actually write it, that book is going to have a lot of chapters...

I know I'll never write it... at least not anywhere other then in my head, hell, I have a hard enough time just writing a silly blog now and then. The thing is that my head feels empty. Empty of ideas, images, feelings. I keep wondering where they all went and if they will ever come back. Maybe I lost them when I lost myself. I'm not really sure how or why. I'm not sure it really even matters any more...

This wasn't supposed to be a depressing blog...I think I'm going to go eat some ice cream.

[SydTheSkeptic]

I was going to write that it's not depressing, but it dawned on self-absorbed-me that it may not the reader's feelings you're referring to.

Sounds to me that you continue to struggle with internal conflict about where you are right now- your state of mind, your life in general. Your emotional well-being is just as important as your physical well-being, which I know you're making efforts to take care of right now (lol, I should talk about emotional well-being, over-compulsive worker that I am).
Baby steps, Dee.

Do you have the book "The Artist's Way"? Did I send that to you a while back? If not, let me know because I'll send it your way. It's an amazing little book (a series now, but you start with that one book). It helps you to take things one day at a time, making two promises to yourself on the outset: 1) you'll write every day for at least 20 minutes, and 2) you'll make an "art date" with yourself every week.

Do you have it?

Here's the website for it--> The Artist's Way

Let me know and I'll get it in the mail to ya Dee. Love ya.

[NatureJunkie]

"If I ever actually write it, that book is going to have a lot of chapters..."

A life story with many chapters is something to strive for, Dee, whether or not it ends up in print. The book Syd is recommending is a good one. Seems like a Catch-22, but it isn't: Ideas come from your work. So keep writing something, anything, and the ideas will come.

[SydTheSkeptic]

Oh, and I forgot to mention that when you start using the book, weird things start to happen.
Good things.
You''ll see.

This has been a reminder for me, Dee, about that book. I need it myself right now.

Perhaps we can read the book together, chapter by chapter, and do the exercises each week and share and just be supportive for one another. Maybe if others want to do this, we can get it going in a private group here on the Ark. Let me know what you think about that.

[SydTheSkeptic]

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[BlancheNoE]

I'm just following Syd. I'm glad she led me here. Please write, Dee,...and I needed a reminder myself. Thanks.