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That is the way someone explained having experienced a trauma at a very young age felt, as if she had a hole in her soul.

When she said it, it made me want to cry because it described how I have felt my entire life. As if something important was missing, as if I left something behind that I shouldn't have. As if I had a hole in my soul.


She explained that she spent her life trying to fill that hole with food... maybe that is what I have been trying to do... fill this void that never goes away.

Step 1..Admit you are powerless over food....I am powerless.

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Comment by BlancheNoE on March 4, 2010 at 8:18am
Hi Dee. It's part of the human condition. We all feel that hole. I believe it is because we become detached from the source (mother, nature, the universe, God, Goddess) as soon as the cord is cut. Trauma is very relative to each soul's experience in my opinion, but we all experience it.
We each try to fill the hole with different things,....food, drugs, alcohol, religion, adrenaline, sex,..whatever,...but I think we're all just looking to plug back into the source. It *is* good to recognize when we are lacking but we shouldn't be too hard on ourselves and we always need to remember that the condition is certainly not exclusive to ourselves (we are not alone). Big virtual hug to you.
Comment by JustDee on March 4, 2010 at 12:22pm
@ Blanchnoe and NBC
thank you both for your words of encouragement.
Comment by Jim on March 12, 2010 at 4:48pm
I've certainly been using food as a comforting method lately. I've gained 10 pounds in the last five months. That last sandwich or bowl of cereal that I consume every night before bed is what does it, I think. I wish I could just skip it and go to bed.

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