Comments - The internet is a time machine. - The Ark2024-03-29T11:09:59Zhttp://lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com/profiles/comment/feed?attachedTo=2426069%3ABlogPost%3A79829&xn_auth=noNJ, ah, I think I knew that..…tag:lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com,2010-05-25:2426069:Comment:798602010-05-25T00:42:48.461Zphoto2010http://lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com/profile/Kevin
NJ, ah, I think I knew that..forgive my poor memory.
NJ, ah, I think I knew that..forgive my poor memory. Kevin, I'm an academic adviso…tag:lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com,2010-05-24:2426069:Comment:798572010-05-24T22:44:55.389ZNatureJunkiehttp://lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com/profile/Robin
Kevin, I'm an academic advisor at a university.
Kevin, I'm an academic advisor at a university. NJ, thank you for your unders…tag:lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com,2010-05-24:2426069:Comment:798562010-05-24T20:30:40.421Zphoto2010http://lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com/profile/Kevin
NJ, thank you for your understanding comment. Leaving my job was a decision made for me by my health. I did it for as long as was physically possible, perhaps too long considering the stressful nature of my work. In fact, i would have left sooner, but I was "misinformed" about the nature of my disability benefits. A long story I won't go into now.<br />
May I ask what kind of work you do?
NJ, thank you for your understanding comment. Leaving my job was a decision made for me by my health. I did it for as long as was physically possible, perhaps too long considering the stressful nature of my work. In fact, i would have left sooner, but I was "misinformed" about the nature of my disability benefits. A long story I won't go into now.<br />
May I ask what kind of work you do? I love my job, too, and I wou…tag:lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com,2010-05-24:2426069:Comment:798552010-05-24T20:03:07.457ZNatureJunkiehttp://lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com/profile/Robin
I love my job, too, and I would miss it deeply if I were forced out of it for any reason. I know that I will have to leave it someday, and I found myself wondering just recently who would pick up my reins when I have to lay them down. Someone who will love it as much as I do? I can only hope so. There's a lot of joy to be had from doing this job well and I hate to see joy go wasted.<br />
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From many things you've written before, Kevin, I know you miss your career. I'm glad your "replacement" was…
I love my job, too, and I would miss it deeply if I were forced out of it for any reason. I know that I will have to leave it someday, and I found myself wondering just recently who would pick up my reins when I have to lay them down. Someone who will love it as much as I do? I can only hope so. There's a lot of joy to be had from doing this job well and I hate to see joy go wasted.<br />
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From many things you've written before, Kevin, I know you miss your career. I'm glad your "replacement" was someone you approved of, and I hope she's loving the job as much as you did. Ruth my friend, i know you me…tag:lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com,2010-05-24:2426069:Comment:798522010-05-24T14:59:44.970Zphoto2010http://lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com/profile/Kevin
Ruth my friend, i know you meant well, and always do. I wake up every day missing my Mother. I miss hearing her spoon tapping her coffee cup from her room next to mine. I miss her calling my name to ask how I'm doing, and asking her the same. For some reason the mornings are the hardest. Was it like that for you? It just all seems to hit me in the morning, though it can happen anytime. Family members visit and lay out a laundry list of<br />
what I should be doing. They have little to no…
Ruth my friend, i know you meant well, and always do. I wake up every day missing my Mother. I miss hearing her spoon tapping her coffee cup from her room next to mine. I miss her calling my name to ask how I'm doing, and asking her the same. For some reason the mornings are the hardest. Was it like that for you? It just all seems to hit me in the morning, though it can happen anytime. Family members visit and lay out a laundry list of<br />
what I should be doing. They have little to no understanding of how I'm feeling. Yes I have help, I'm literally going broke paying for it, but I need it. I'm scared I'll end up in a nursing home. I'm going to try to take out a home equity loan to pay bills. Do you know how those work? I wanted to do a reverse mortgage, but I'm told you have to be 62 and I'm 58. I'm scared. But, even with all that, I have a feeling deep inside that I'll be alright. My parents survived many many trials and I was there for many of them.<br />
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Grieving, like life, is a process. I'm processing a lot right now. Thank you for caring.<br />
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xo<br />
Kevin Hey Kevin...I deleted my comm…tag:lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com,2010-05-24:2426069:Comment:798512010-05-24T13:35:09.102ZJustAnotherUserNamehttp://lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com/profile/JustAnotherUserName
Hey Kevin...I deleted my comment before yours showed up...! Upon reflection, I just wasn't comfortable keeping it here--I was afraid I overstepped. You know I wish you well--but I've seen others in my particular position choose a different path and they remain stuck in an unhappy cycle. I don't want that for you.<br />
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Anyway, as always, lots of love coming to you from over here!<br />
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xo<br />
Ruth
Hey Kevin...I deleted my comment before yours showed up...! Upon reflection, I just wasn't comfortable keeping it here--I was afraid I overstepped. You know I wish you well--but I've seen others in my particular position choose a different path and they remain stuck in an unhappy cycle. I don't want that for you.<br />
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Anyway, as always, lots of love coming to you from over here!<br />
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xo<br />
Ruth Ruth, I do find small positiv…tag:lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com,2010-05-24:2426069:Comment:798502010-05-24T13:03:28.634Zphoto2010http://lovevideoplayhouse.ning.com/profile/Kevin
Ruth, I do find small positive places in my life. The Ark is one of them. I am allowed this safe harbor to place my thoughts and feelings, good or bad, and don't have to smother them. You may not have noticed, but I've been placing comments on other people's vlogs, trying to be as supportive as I can. That is something I had stopped doing for awhile. A positive baby step. I have to correct you on something. Living in chronic pain for 22 years and losing my mobility HAS changed me and i daresay…
Ruth, I do find small positive places in my life. The Ark is one of them. I am allowed this safe harbor to place my thoughts and feelings, good or bad, and don't have to smother them. You may not have noticed, but I've been placing comments on other people's vlogs, trying to be as supportive as I can. That is something I had stopped doing for awhile. A positive baby step. I have to correct you on something. Living in chronic pain for 22 years and losing my mobility HAS changed me and i daresay would change most people. I can't walk to my car and go where I want, when I want, HOWEVER I have kept my car, hoping for the day I can drive again. Trust me, if i was not a positive person, I wouldn't be here anymore. Please also remember, I am still in the early stages of grieving, and we all grieve differently. I know you understand that.<br />
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I greatly appreciate what you say, I am looking for positives. Thank you for your kindness.<br />
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xo<br />
Kevin