JustDee's Blog – July 2009 Archive (5)

Have you ever asked a woman when she was "due" and she wasn't even pregnant?

So.. today is my birthday and I am sitting here at almost 2:30 in the morning contemplating my life...



Actually, I seem to do that every night so really this has nothing to do with my birthday...



So I am 46 today, that is almost 50. In dog years I am 322. Wow.. almost 50, when I was a teen ager, I thought 63 was as old as I would ever get, that gives me another 17 years of life..LOL.



Can you imagine? I actually thought 63 was like OLD. What a laugh that is now.… Continue

A friend of mine recently said this to me in response to a comment I made on his blog,



"One of these days I'll learn to just turn on the fucking light... but the shock factor alone at seeing all the mess at one time would surly kill me, maybe that's why I can't find the light switch, hell there might not even be one, so stumble through this I will, and not gracefully might I add...lol ... I'm ok with that. "



It struck a chord with me because that is how I kind of view how… Continue

This is why I don't go to bed at a normal hour. Last night I went to bed a midnight...I actually fell asleep... and woke up an hour later, raring to go. I tried to go back to sleep.. I explained to myself, "self, it isn't time to get up, it's still the middle of the night." Myself answered, "but I took a nap, I want to get up now." I again tried to explain to myself," no, you have to stay in bed and sleep like a normal person." But myself just wasn't buying it. I finally gave in at around two… Continue

You would think that as I come upon my 46th birthday, that I would have my life figured out. You would think that I would know what I want to be when I grow up and that I would no longer be suffering from the amount of doubt and self loathing that I deal with. You would think... but no. Here I am, about to turn 46 and I am still wondering what it's all about.



There was a time in my life when I knew exactly who I was and what I wanted out of life and quite frankly, I don't know how I… Continue